Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
i am utterly flabbergasted and shocked. i am starting to regret my choices and that is not a good starter for the year. I don't know if it's my brain that getting rusty or what. had my first taste of RAs today--two times in fact and after each lesson, it just confirmed and reinforced my worst fears.
for chi, she's actually going to give us pop quizzes on chinese literature and history and culture and stuff like that and it seems that we are 'supposed' to know them. what am i supposed to do??? i don't think i'm supposed to be there. First mistake made.
For chem, it's just pure terror. I'm sure i'll improve a lot in this class but it's just so demoralizing to think i don't know all this stuff.
I feel like a total dummy and don't bother comforting me. If i made those mistakes, I'm going to live with it and not let them beat me, at least that is the theory for now.
I'm seriously going to buck up, some way or another because i know i have nothing to fall back on.
let your heart out.