Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
风雨的绞缠
悲壮的爱情
从这刻起
走入历史
人生的风霜
红尘做伴
远离都市繁华
共创美满未来
潇洒的岁月
头也不回
弃人不顾
乘风而去
明日的晨曦
今夜的晚霞
烂漫的点缀
舞出彩虹
let your heart out.
Always the element of surprise, i suppose.
i feel neglected and abandoned and is it normal to have so much emotions of such difference flow through you at one time?
seeing that i have the emotion range of more than a teaspoon, i suppose so.
i'm grasping on to past memories desperately. i can't afford to let go. i hate it how we are all moving on, but we are not moving together. we're drifting.
let your heart out.
Humiliation vs pain. Who can draw the line between them? To undergo tremendous humiliation would be torturous to the soul and the mind and wouldn't this inflict pain??
I wonder.
Poised on the dentist chair just now, i entertained myself with thoughts on this. would i prefer humiliation or pain??
I chose pain.
I have no idea whether this was a cowardly choice. To evade tortures of the mind seem quite despicable and weak. Not many can be strong enough to stand up to it.
Of course, this is all hypothetical. I seem to have broken free from writing like what i used to write before. Not that i had totally abandoned all hopes of resuming my former self; i just seem to snap out of my reveries sometimes and sink back in before someone says abc
A ~~~~~~ B ~~~~~ C
let your heart out.
请给我的心指引一个方向
因为我的感情
它单纯而美丽
需要找到栖息的归处
把心搁在一旁
宠宠自己
让自己沉浸在醉梦中
逍遥
虔诚的祝福
在一瞬间
虚无缥缈
消失在地平线
世界的另一角
冷眼旁观
请让时间静止
重整
倒带
重来
我愿赌上一切
眼中闪烁泪水
无助
无奈
打转着哆嗦
感叹着世界的残酷
let your heart out.
If i only had 10 minutes of my life left, what should i do?
If i could change 10 minutes of my life, what should i change?
Looking back, there are many regrets in life. Uncountable, even. When life comes to an end, it will be an unfinished puzzle and yet one doesn't need a complete puzzle to finish life.
I'm not making sense. I don't feel like making sense. The buzz that keeps droning on in my head is driving me crazy. I feel a suppressed emotion drumming against my chest.
Sometimes just looking into space makes me realize how imperfect someone can be. A person's beauty lies in her flaws.
I look on with sceptism.
let your heart out.
--censored---
I like this statement that a protagonist once made.
"The illusion of life. The illusion of death. The illusion of happiness."
"Sisters of the paint."
let your heart out.
我不知道我在为谁哭泣。
仿佛哭泣的理由不在如此重要。为什么哭，我也说不上来。
只是直觉得想哭。
而且是一个人独自静静的哭。泪水是自私的。谁都不能看见它。
哭过的痕迹，一下子就会消失的。但心里留下的疙瘩，却印下了磨灭不了的伤痕。
这将是我隐藏的秘密。把剩余的泪水吞进肚子里，让时间将一切伤口给冲淡吧。我早已变得麻木。
let your heart out.
"sweet by and by; sweet bye and bye" so poignant and romantic.
i'm one romantic.
now, i have to work on smp. argh. i should not have ventured into the wild depths of science, the evil nature of it will take advantage of poor defenceless girls and devour their souls and energy before they realize it. poor girls (aka me).
let your heart out.
I can't stop running. The wind can't catch me. I'm running from the world. and I can't be caught. I'm afraid the wind would spill secrets on me and whisper my innermost fears to others.
蒲公英的爱如此脆弱，经不起风吹雨打。那不算是永恒的爱。可每一场都是轰轰烈烈的。尽管如此，它却悄悄地生了根，不管岁月再怎么摧残，不管命运如何摆布，如何刁难，它却能活下去。这是坚韧的爱啊。
我的心是一团海绵，一团被泪水耗尽的海绵。
let your heart out.
I draw upon the sword deeply etched in my heart. That sword of betrayal, loss and superficiality. Unknowingly, we had bad farewell to the era of innocence and stumbled into one of blood and betrayal.
Yea, loyalty is earned by shedding blood.
I hate to admit that the world revovles around this philosophy. Everyone just got stuck into this whirlpool and loony cycle of absurdity and wild savageness, blinded by fame and that make-believe sense of belonging and identity.
It's an uncomfortable ride but no one wishes to be the first to get off. No one wants to seem like a weakling, a coward, a misfit.
But few knows the blatant truth that it is those that chose to stay that are real morons and cowards. And the pathetic thing is that even when the truth is practically shouting in their faces, they chose to overlook and ignore it, even treating it with disdain and scorn.
They chose this never-ending path of regret and this choice would just be one of many regrets.
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Life's all about politics. What's with all the internal conflicts and bitching and bashing of other people? If everyone regards one another with a cold eye and with hearts full of sceptism, where's friendship, for crying out loud?
Even friendships seem to be like business deals. Only when a form of benefit is gained through the friendship would one befriend another. and when there's nothing for her to suck out from, you get issued a red card. when the song "oops, i did it again." was sung, i was struck by the poignancy and irony of the whole song. Yes, it may be talking about love, but if lovers cheat, why can't friends? Afterall, they stem from the same family and share the fundamental basis of care and 'genuine affections' for one another, just that they are at different levels and expressed differently, that's all.
True, We are not that innocent. I'm appalled and disgusted and ashamed to be even witnessing all these nonsense.
let your heart out.
"The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning" s4 farewell ended well today. Farewells are always so bittersweet and tear-wrenching. i feel that jessica's speeches are extremely quaint and unique. She is an absolutely fabulous orator!
Class party was a hit! Shall elaborate tmrw. :D go fb see the spastic photos that we took. cheryl-doobie-me.
"I'm in seventh heaven..........."
let your heart out.
我已厌倦这样别扭的生活了。来去匆匆，现在回想起来，根本没法捕捉到昔日的点点滴滴，就算有，也只是模糊不清的影片，没有焦点。
所谓的生存技巧，我根本无法拥有。无法融入，却又无法隐性，每天都活得十分痛苦。
let your heart out.
Our classroom is definitely in good shape, at least better than i expected but we are still lacking in the entertainment and games section. oops. **sheepish grin**sorry weiyi. haha. at least the decor looks great and rainforest-like although the animals that i strung around the vines keep getting comments like "Why does that bird look strangled?". On second glance, they do look like they are in great pain. i call them the two lovesick birds since they are kind of near each other but unable to make physical contact, only exchange longing glances admist the vines. mymy, ziwei would sure agree with this piece. :D
And i had a horror this afternoon when i had to climb up the height of two tables to paste green cellophane paper onto the ceiling lights to create a more authentic ambience. I didn't realize it was that tall until I actually climbed it and to make matters worse, the table was super shaky and i was demonstrating it to weiyi. it was quite funny actually cos i was trying to strain my neck to paste it on and the only help i actually had was of the air con constantly blowing the cellophane out of place and chilling me out thoroughly. Whoever thought of putting the ceiling lights right in line with the air-con must have serious head problems. IT WAS FREEZING COLD UP THERE.
the sad thing was that only 19 ppl came to school today (from our class). right, 19 poor souls. reasons for being absent: rsp trip to m'sia/ no plain reason but just want to skip school/arts fest rehearsal with the majority being the second reason. To put it nicely, it's "absent without reason" but it's just truancy i think. my definitions a bit mixed up. [definition of truancy: act of staying away from school without permission] They had permission i guess from their parents. oh well, shan't bother so much cos personally i would prefer to stay away from school cos we are merely engaging in post-eyas activities (A.K.A talks, talks and more talks) that has no appeal at all.
i should. stop. writing. long. sentences. and. remember. to. take a. breath. every now and then.
let your heart out.
note: if u are called doobie, go right to the bottom of this post and skip this part. :D
活在这世上，就注定当个傀儡。没有人能逃脱命运的摆布；即使有这么一个人，那也只是他的幻觉罢了。可就算是当生命，当上苍的奴隶，也要当得有尊严，当个有主见，又自己思想能力的人。有很多时候，为了在这世上找到能够安心的立足之地，人们常常不择手段，甚至到达把自己硬塞入一个与自己截然不同的世界的地步。何苦呢？
做人做得抬不起头来，挺不直背来，就真的太失败了。
可我宁愿做个快乐的傀儡，无忧无虑的生活，不被世间谎言所污染，所蒙蔽。
P.S. sorry doobie. will post in english soon.
let your heart out.